It’s been a while, I know… Too long. But it was needed.
After having worked for a psychopath I needed some time off… Though it was a very enlightening experience on a personal and professional level, in the end, showed me that inside the Music Industry it is all orchestrated for a small bunch of people and, as the word says it, it is a Business. The Music Business. Basically, it is all about the money.
As a person myself who never has done anything for/cared about the money, it was painful, disappointing but not surprising to realise that I will never have a real chance in this industry and, that put me off a bit. Actually, a lot. I did not even want to listen to music anymore. Also, after having reached out to the wrong people I didn’t manage to release any music last year and afterwards, even I stopped playing the piano too. I just was not feeling it. At all.
Then, last April I was offered what looked like an amazing opportunity by Platoon (Apple owned Artists Services Company). This time though, I kept my expectations to the lowest and laid out all my cards from the beginning… I even negotiated my salary for the first time… EVER!
However, very quickly I could see that wasn’t the role nor the place to be and I quit. I cannot waste the most valuable thing I have: my time. Deep inside of me, I know Steve Jobs is proud of me.
So now I am back on track! I am FEELING THE MUSIC again… That fire burning inside of me that won’t extinguish until I do something about it. Feeding it. Making it burn, stronger and hotter than ever.
My priorities right now are…
1st: Going to the FIFA World Cup next year. I cannot die without living the experience of a Football World Cup and, next year works perfectly. I must see MESSI playing for Argentina again. If everything goes well and if I manage to get a ticket for the 18th of December, I will be seeing him lifting the only trophy missing in his cabinet. Wish me luck, please!
2nd: Being happy making my Music. Without pressure, boundaries, genres, limitations or unwanted opinions. I am going to make music on my terms, without asking anything to people who promise but never delivers, without compromising who I am… I am making the Music I like and I want to sing loud and clear, writing it, playing it, singing it as I want and I can. I am making Music now again because I want to, because I LOVE MUSIC and I always wanted to be on the stage singing to people as Freddie did. Because, no matter how many other things I try to do, inside of me, my passion does not allow me to give up. I am a performer, simply as that.
3rd: Going to Japan. I wanted to go last year, but we all know what happened so, next September it is! I cannot wait to explore Japanese cities, meet the locals, learn about their culture, Buddhism and eat as much incredible food I can afford. Cannot wait!
I hope you join me and be with me physically and, spiritually and emotionally on this adventure. One thing I can promise, it won’t be boring.
Photo: Yulia Hauer